Thursday, November 09, 2006

what a week!

I'm going to update...but it's for me...so I can get it all out...it's been just over a week and LOTS has happened...granted nothing that's "exciting to talk about"...

Lets see...Last Monday night I went to the ER with some chest pains...couldn't breath deep at all...felt like someone was squeezing my lungs...very painful...Doc said it was Pleurisy...got 2 doses of morphine...didn't get home from the ER till 5AM...so my sweet wonderful husband and I decided to sleep late (he took me to the ER)...When we got up around 11ish, he went and got my prescription pain pills filled (I was hurting pretty bad!!!)...He left for work around 1ish, with me promising I wouldn't drive as I took one of the pain pills...he called his mom and told her that I was to call her if I needed anything, and updated her on what was going on...and I drifted off to sleep again...slept for 2 hours or so on the couch and decided to relocate to the bed...in and out of sleep...life was good (I was on pain pills remember!)...then 3:45 my phone rang...pain pills were starting to wear off, so I answered (thinking I could deal with a tele-marketer for a few minutes, since I would get a pain pill after that...only that didn't happen!....

On the other end of the phone was my mother in law...obviously upset...she apologized several times for calling me while I was "sick" (my thoughts - I'm just in pain - not sick)...I told her she could always call me and proceeded to try to pry out of her what was wrong...That when she told me Christy was dead...*sucker punch to the gut feeling*...WHAT?!?!...thinking to myself "she was fine...I just saw her Sunday...had dinner with her Friday...she wasn't even in the hospital...snap back to the phone...she wants me to GO and tell my sweet wonderful husband...I assure her I'm on my way out the door...I threw on my clothes from the night before...and out the door I went (granted with no pain pills - so it was a LONG night!)...I drive to his work...boo hooing the whole way...trying to figure out how I tell my precious husband that his sister was dead...I made a few phone calls blubbering on my way out there...was off the phone when I got to his work...he saw me pull up, and came out with a goofy grin on his face (like he forgot that I wasn't supposed to be driving...and I was just here to surprise him)...as he got closer to the car he saw my face...opened the door and began questioning what was wrong...I couldn't talk...I just cried....he begged what's wrong...I told him it was Christy...and cried more...he had to hear the words...he asked what's wrong with Christy...I could only whisper at this point...hugging him...I whispered that she was dead...he backed away with the look of the "sucker punch" feeling I felt earlier...turned around and collapsed in the parking lot sobbing...(he was VERY close to his sister!)...his boss is also a deacon at our church...he came out and asked what was going on...I told him, and tried to console my sweetie a little... From there it was kind of a blur of family time...we left his work and went out to his parents house...and with the exception of sleeping and during the day Wednesday...we were there until Friday night late....(Wednesday I HAD to go into work for a little while - it was after all the first day of the month and I do work in accounting)...a few friends and my parents came up for the funeral...we got to spend a little time together...and then it was back to work on Monday...while it's been just over a week...it still hurts...

Christy was a fantastic person - I do miss her terribly...granted I know it's probably only a fraction of what my husband feels! It kills my soul to know that her 10 year old son will have to grow up without his mom...it's not fair! Granted I know God's in control, and he has a plan...and I know Christy was saved, so she's with Jesus now and not having to struggle with diabetes any more! And her little boy is saved too, so they will be together again! So my only sadness comes from her not being HERE anymore...I can't talk to her...I can hear her laugh...see her smile...etc...at least not for a while...

Ok - this has gotten long...and kinda sad...but I needed to get it all out of me...so now I have...and now I must get busy...

Please keep my family in your prayers at this time...ya know - something that's changed...it's not my husbands family any more...they are MY family!

3 comments:

Bec said...

XOXOXO

Gin said...

You have such a wonderful new family in Arkansas with you. You will give them much support, just as you've done for our family, wherever we all are now.

Ms.Green said...

I am so sorry. I will be praying for you all.